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2012年12月31日

空。

告诉你再见,
并不是再不见,
而是想要再度地看见你……
 
31 Dec 2012 3:48am
失眠吗?不是……
我开始不怎么明白自我了。
明年大考来了,不能再像现在这样。
以后都不能陪大家一起玩,还有你……
不能陪你玩了……
不代表我放弃了,我只是停止了自己。

 我不明白我自己,
为什么我要去害怕我的未来,
为什么我会去在意我得到了什么。
在意自己是强还是弱。
如果是你,你应该会回答我,
因为你是人类,对吧?
那么,人类为什么会有感情……
如果伤心了,心就会痛。
开心了,所有的东西都会忘掉。
伤心……很难受的。
空虚的感觉,只有自己在承担,
只有自己背着自己在哭泣。
你会为我而紧张,我不哭……
你会自责,我也会感到自卑……
头好疼,夜深了,雨在下。
我,还是那么深深地想念着你。
你知不知道……
即使过了1个星期,
我还是感觉你的离开,我的心疼。
急了,找不到你……
那个时候,我一直在懊恼。
是时候说再见了呢,这一句……
我不想离开你……我想一直和你在一起……
让我感到十万个不舍得了……
最后,我还是转过头,向你说了再见。
挥了挥手,上了电车……
眼看你,离我,
又开始越来越远了……
你说过,不会让我一个人,
不会让我一个人哭泣,不会看着我痛苦……
看来是我,让你一次又一次地失望了,
我还是忍不住背着你,不断地哭泣。
不断地变得懦弱。
你改变了我,我改变不了我自己……
我不要变回去……我不要……。
 

Blog Post.

Thats the only you,
Who can understand me well.
 
31st Dec 2012
 
Its the last day of 2012.
Maybe I should just went back to the blogging life.
Next year.
Facing SPM,
the biggest and the most important exam in my secondary.
We were left apart...
its abit long story to tell...
I didnt know what just happened to me.
I hope he is okay right now...
sometimes,I need to improve a certain things.
However I just cant believe in myself,
ended up I did nothing,
and making trouble to people.
I wondered...
Maybe I should just sacrifice all this,
to make another person happier or what...
But no..
stop this idea silly AmeKoto.
the others wont be happy if you did that.
Right...?
 
But..
I scare..
to see all this...
why must we argure..
why must I making trouble..
why cant I become useful abit...
Rain could not tell me why...
Its not the only once time...
it had been happened alot of times...
And then,there was none...